Week 3 Stats - Little Rat Bastard

Week Three Stats
Location: Edmonton, Alberta, Canada
Age: 38
Height: 5'6"
Starting Weight: 310lbs
Current Weight: 301.2lbs
Calories/day: 1600-1850 (32-37 points)
Calorie average this week: 1750 (34 points)
Exercise: 2 mile Leslie Sansone walking video x 2, 1 hour aquasize x 2, 1.5hr drumming class
Week 3: -3.6 lbs!!!

Woot! Woot! Had a great week. My eating was slammin' and my booty was movin.' I feel great about successfully managing my 3 meals out at restaurants this week. The menu items I chose were scrumptious and I did a great job of figuring out my proportions. I've noticed a difference in how I'm sleeping and I'm feeling stronger and more flexible. It's amazing what a difference a few weeks can make! Four weeks ago I was feeling extremely suffocated by my body. I am so glad I didn't delay any longer and so grateful for how my body is responding.

That said... when I woke up yesterday morning, that Little Rat Bastard (L.R.B.) of a nagging voice started up right away... blabbing on about how it had been such a good week and how those scales better be down significantly. Now, I have tousled with this voice many times during my previous journeys with Weight Watchers. One thing I have certainly learned is that L.R.B. is never happy. If I don't lose weight, L.R.B. says "well, you might as well just have what you want because it doesn't work anyway." If I lose a little weight, L.R.B. says "at this rate, you'll be dead before you get the pounds off... just eat and enjoy yourself now." If I lose a lot of weight, L.R.B. says "you're losing too fast and you are going to end up looking like a sharpei, or your body will go into starvation mode and you'll stop losing weight...." BLAH BLAH BLAH.

What worked for me was that every time that L.R.B. voice came out, I took a breath and repeated the commitment I have made to myself...

I am practicing patience with my weight loss. Not patience disguised as lazy, passive waiting... I mean I am doing my job: persistent, daring, tenacious, brave, consistent effort to balance my eating and fitness AND I will live patiently, accepting my body's rhythm and rate of weight loss.

It took a lot of repeating, but by the time I got to the scale, I felt connected to all of the efforts I had made during the week. Did I hope that I would lose... sure! However, I felt one hundred percent confident that my weight would reduce over time. My body is not a performance seal putting on a show for the weekly Weight Watchers gathering. My body has already shown me in so many ways this week that I am doing what I need to do. The 3.6 was a happy bonus!